Seriously hate myself!

I'm not doing a good jobs of being a good friends. WTF! I always make people angry easily without me realise/aware. Why Why Why Why Why Why Why!
I hate to quarrel with people, hate people will angry with me. even is not my fault I will still apologies with that person. feel like crying):
What's wrong with me? I know in the past i'm not doing a great job but in future i will be a better person better friends to all. I promise that I will cherish the things I'm having right now. And also improve myself even more. I promise.
Fuck la. I seriously hate myself a lot and the worst things is I hate to quarrel with my loves one.

Sorry! Kinda don't know how to amend. But I'm sorry!
* Hope she wont find others friend to replace me this best friend*
Sorry again. Fuck!!!!